My Emotions

There is no question about it. I am worse now than I ever been when it comes to shedding tears, I don't know what it's all about. All I know is that as I have become older everything seems to touch an emtional nerve that leaves me teary eyed and wondering why at times. It doesn't seem to matter the subject except if there is any moral to a given subject, TV program, commercials or any wise and meaningful thought, I'm an emotional wreck! Don't show me a dog limping. Don't show me a child that is sick. Moreover, don't show me a happy family. I can't take it.I know it has to be my advanced age because there is nothing else it could be. But why? Nearer to the end of life? Nearer to the judgement seat and all I must reveal? That's an interesting thought. Maybe it is merely that I have become more tender and things take on a deeper meaning than before. But whatever it might be, don't say anything nice about me to my face. Don't even hint that I am a good person. Don't even tell me about how nice one or all of my kids might be. I will respond with welled up tears and a throat that is so choked up that I can't speak. So, be aware that you might be the reason I am emtional when you look at me with loving thoughts. Sorry but I am what I am  and at this time in my life all of the above is true and self defeating. I tell people that now that I am 89, I am going on 90. It's a fact. I am going there. Whether I make it or not, I can at least say, I am going there and at this age I'm entitled to shed a tear if I feel like it. So there!